the second installment from the begining...

just wanted to start off saying if you check out thru the purple haze pt 2 i have posted some fabulous finds that i have found on YouTube of some favourite things... including new work from Julie Brown featuring a wonderful new song entitled... I want to be Gay!!! check it out its hilarious... the website again is www.thruthepurplehaze.blogspot.com

now before i begin the story again... i really should go back and read what i wrote before to know where to continue from...

so the story continues...

   i do not remember much from the time that i was born until the time that i was little... i think that most people could relate to that statement...  its not like i can pull a certain full memory out from that part... now looking thru a picture book seems like it can easily open up memories from the past, but when im eating my birthday cake when i was one and had it all over my face? It really seems like from the picture i was having a really good ol time with that birthday cake... but it doesnt cause any flashes of memories to come flooding to me...

    i always loved looking thru the photo albums growing up... looking at pictures from the past, seeing how young someone once was... to be able to try to put yourself into their shoes, to try to understand what their world could have been like... what molded them... what programmed them with their values,... and what values did they try to pass on to me? i know the strongest value that i have learned from all of my family is Love... i do remember that there was so much love around me...

    the photos cannot lie... i had the biggest blue eyes full of innocence, and the longest eyelashes... and a full head of luxurious blonde hair...  i was the belle of the ball... i would sing and dance to twinkle twinkle little star... and wail the hell out of Delta Dawn... a song made famous by i think she was then 14 years old Tanya Tucker... Whats that flower you had on? did you say it was a mancion in the sky? 

    i remember that my mum hadto work alot and when i was very young i was taken care of by my Grandma, her mother, which would make that my Great Grandmother, and my Grandma's sister, my Aunt Ruthie...  i remember when i was a very young child going to my Aunt Ruthie's house...  the walls in the house were like a fabulous blue green on brick, it was a very interesting house...  i can remember spending alot of time there... i really loved playing with Aunt Ruthie's beautiful Jewelry, I loved it... and she had these wonderful beads that i could snap together and make a really big necklace... i loved to wear it and feel pretty...  the only problem with that fact, and not saying that feeling pretty is wrong, that i was a little boy...

     Little boys are not supposed to want to be little girls...  but at that time it was a mystery as to what made us different... and what i had to accept that i wasnt... which could lead to who i am today... but that is only further psychoanalyzation made on my part and im not a doctor or anything believe me... if you've read this far you might even have realized that i do not have a PHD and im not a psychic or anything... just another random confused individual living on this lovely rock called earth...

    Anyway...i also remember going to my Great Grandma's when i was very young... i would sing and talk into the tape recorder, different things that came to my mind, i have some copies of this saved onto a cd... its pretty interesting... i loved my Great Grandma so much... she owned a hotel... it was her huge house that had been built by her husband a long time ago... made from rock, and then there were six "cabins" and then two houses at the end... she would rent them out to passer by's in the area... i also remember being at my Great Grandma's and listening to the radio with her, as she would listen to the morning radio personality... Ted Bee... believe thats how you spell it... from what i hear, thirtysome years later, Ted still has his radio program... wow... he has quite a following in the little town of Boonville and New Franklin...

    Pringles and Ovaltene? dont know how you spell it... but those were some of the things that i remember loving as a child... my Great Grandma would always have these things... plus, she would make me some wonderful custardto drink... i would love to have some of that custard now...  But onto my Great Grandma's wonderful daughter... the woman that was truly my best friend... My Grandma Allie... she was a truly a beautiful woman with a very big heart, someone whos presence in my life i truly miss... but that is a long way coming in my story, and she loved me more than anything...

to be continued

Thru The Purple Haze: The Beginning,aka Chapter 1 pt1

    Like all stories... they have a beginning, a middle and and end... this story doesn't have the ending written yet, but it does have a beginning and plenty of middle, and will be full of a bunch of psychoanilization  to find out who in this world i truly am... what i was brought into this world to be, and plenty of questions that might get answered as i go thru and tell everything that i can remember, and how it affected me as a person to drive me to who i am now and who i could be in the future... so lets re begin this story at the beginning... where it all started...

           Once upon a time... in a small city in Missouri, a beautiful young girl was in a hospital, she was barely 18... She was about to give birth... but she was only 7 1/2 months pregnant so the baby would be premature.  She had a family that loved her very much, and made sure she knew that they would be there for her no matter what... considering the baby's father didn't want anything to do with this child... and his lovely mother even tried to convince this young girl to have an abortion... The two families were filled with hatred for each other... and the innocent one was about to enter this world...    

     on November 4th, 1970 the premmie entered this world, less than five pounds... the baby would have to remain in the hospital for over a month to be over five pounds so it could leave the hospital (why is it now i never have a problem gaining weight?) Born to the world was a beautiful baby with big blue eyes, blonde hair, complete with a white streak that Grandma pointed out in the incub... The baby was well loved by its Mom, Grandma, Grandpa, and plenty of Aunts, Uncles and Great Aunts, and beautiful wise Great Grandmothers...  Just no Father around...  but that is a factor that will weigh in thru out the story... the story has only just begun... stay tuned for the next installment... until then

all my love

Constance

still here

just so you dont think i fell off the planet, or think that i might have reached my expiration date to... i wanna let you know that im here and doin ok... am moving again this thursday to a different apartment in the same complex, so then ill have my own bedroom... whooo hoooo... then i can entertain in the way that i do best...LOL but... if you've been tuning into my other blog at www.thruthepurplehaze.blogspot.com, you will see that everyday since Anna died, i went thru and did searches for Anna Nicole Smith in www.youtube.com and posted all kinds of tribute videos set to music with picture collages to help you remember all the beauty that Anna possessed, as well as clips that were taken for Television news reports, and also found a fabulous Anna video done by Anna herself singing the Marilyn Monroe tune "My Heart Belongs to Daddy"...  Ive been watching alot of the news channels and listening to people talk about her-- they talk about how sweet she was, and was deeply hurt when people talk about her saying lots of mean things that hurt her feelings... Oh Anna, i so wish i could have known you... but just know, I'll never forget you and you will always be in my heart... you have entertained the world in one way or another, may you rest in ever loving peace... I hope your doing well up there with Daniel, and I'm sure you've met my best friend Seth up there... he will be lots of fun...

my love always and forever

Constance

dont forget... check out www.thruthepurplehaze.blogspot.com  it will excite you!!!

i will always love you Anna Nicole Smith

i will always love you Anna Nicole Smith

you will always be my hero and one of my idols to whom i really looked up to, you, like I, do not know my real father, and you have made it from the bottom up and created a name for yourself... you are such a beautiful person on the inside and the out... you made the world laugh and have fun as they watched your zany antics and all the while... you were the one laughing because you got america hooked yet again... i wish i could have a full lifetime to know about the life of Anna Nicole, you really inspire me, and like Marilyn you are gone before your time... I will never forget you and keep your name spread throughout the encounters in my life... I wanna take the time to thank my friends who all called and offered their condolences to me because they all know how much i love you and knew how devastated it would be when i found out the news... each day since Feb. 8th 2007 has been getting a bit easier, but those tears still well up and begin to flow when i think about you leaving this world... i know you will remain a legend just for who you were, and you definately was my generations Marilyn Monroe... why is it all of the beautiful Blonde Bombshells leave far to soon... God please look over Dannilynne and make sure whoever gets custody treats that child like the perfect little PRINCESS that she is... All of this news has just broke my heart... Ive been a total wreck... yesterday on the way to work i was driving and i broke into tears thinking about your passing... you will truly be missed on this realm...
Sorrowfully saying goodbye for now my beautiful blonde idol...
Constance Lee Stone

I'll Miss you Anna

Anna... all my love and i hope your with Daniel and my friend Seth and happy  in heaven... i have today lost my hero in life... yes i have Wonder Woman, but she wasnt real... but Anna was... but alot of people either thought she was stupid or a gold digger... but i heard a good expression of her on the news... as dumb as a fox... and you know foxes aren't dumb... Anna you are definately right in the ranks of Marilyn Monroe, and you created  a name for yourself and you left us far to young... i will truly miss you... all my love forever... a light just went out in my life...

love you always

Constance Lee Stone...

WONDER WOMAN DELAYED YET AGAIN

Just wanted to take the time to report that Wonder Woman #4 has been delayed for at least the fifth time now if not more... it has been since june since we got issue number one... and since then... we have had two more issues... thats three issues of Wonder Woman in an eight month period... never in all my years of reading Wonder Woman has there been this much of a gap between issues because the writer of the comic has actually bit off more than he can chew and is putting his priorities in the wrong order... get your issues done so we can move on with a writer who understands deadlines and adheres to them... lets welcome best selling author Jodi Piccoult to the writing reins for Wonder Woman... i hope if Heinberg can't get his issues out on time... they still release Jodi's as scheduled to smear the poo in his face for his treatment of my favourite Super Heroine... i do give credit where credit is due... and the story is very good... but its not so good that its excuseable to allow so much of a gap between issues... i hope DC has learned their lesson and will never allow this person to touch Wonder Woman again... they relaunched her at a new number one... and at first the excitement had all built up... but then the constant delays.. im tired of it... get him out of the game... find a competent writer to finish it up and lets move on... im sure ABC wouldnt handle things so nicely if he wasnt keeping up with his scripting of Greys anatomy and kept lagging behind... and to top it off...he finds time to get on My Space... stay off there til you have all your shit done... you have really really really dissapointed some Wonder Woman fans out there...Shame on you Mr. Heinberg... you started with lots of fanfare... but with all these delays... you almost make this fan not care... learn how to adhere to deadlines next time is all i have to say!!!

so mad i could spit
Constance

my view of the State of the Union

standing up there, looking like an idiot... the audience claps as the president , as they have now announced it for like the second or third time now... i think we are aware of the most hated man in the world is...as least he addressed Madame Speaker... Nancy Polosi? good thing he mentioned those senators who couldn't be here tonight... is he about to give a sermon?  Wisdom to face it together? wouldn't that mean that he had to have wisdom to? 7.2 million new jobs? hmmm... and the rich get richer and the poor get poorer... state of the economy... priorities... balance the federal budget my ass... how? do you have a trillion dollars in your pocket Bushie? and not raise taxes... federal budget? does that include the war? Earmarks... never heard of them... but i guess that they are slipped into reports... do they cover up the booing with more clapping?  Entitlement... social security.. save social security... yes i want that... ive paid into it... oh and now he goes onto public schools... time to eat... but can you notice... he starts talking about all his empty promises before he can talk about the real issue... the war.... right now all he is saying is everything he knows people want to hear... that's why they are clapping... and then won't follow thru... if i do see a follow thru i will gladly eat my words... but he hasn't impressed me after the war started and no weapons of mass destruction found... his speech this time makes him sound a bit more intelligent that some of the dumbass shit that he said that has made him sound like a total moron... i give credit where credit is due... he did keep America calm after 911... terrorist's terrorist terrorist's....terrorists cells...  Thanks to our Troops for protecting us from.... it may all seem like ramblings thru the state of the union review... totalitarian... big word... islamist radical movements? domina middle east... regime... wow... im learning some big words here... there goes the totalitarian... let me just say... i do not want a draft to come back... i don't think its fair to send someone who believes in peace with all their heart to send them off to war and scar  beautiful souls forever...20,000 more  troops... 4000 more marines...  I pray for everyone that is sent off to this awful war... may you come home safe and sound, may God watch over you and you're family while you are away... he is so trying to get us to buy into his bullshit to make us want to send more troops against this war on terror...92,000 in five years? volunteer reserve core? you can actually go a volunteer? if you wanted to volunteer... why not join one of the armed forces...?  that's nice to ggive money to Africa for all these things... but shouldn't some of that money be spent right here in our country to handle our problems that we face here like homelessness, and health care for all... not just some...  well after one hour and three minutes... the speech is over... and what did we learn? that our State of the Union is Strong...  is that how he envisions that we are is Strong?  he says what he wants to say... to sway people over to his way of thinking... health care was a good issue... but he stated... it will help some... help everyone...  tax deductions... to sum it all up... sad echoes of promises he made time and time before... and has done nothing with concerning global warming as well as other issues lightly addressed... just being polite enough to sway over the wishy washy person in the middle who cannot make up their mind if they want to move over to his side and way of thinking... im sorry but someone forgot to slip me a brainwashing pill so i could believe all of his shit again... so i guess one year from now... in 2008 we will hear the man make his last state of the union speach because in 2009 we will have a new president that will be able to deliver it to us... hopefully it will be Hillary!!! well ive had all of his union that i can handle... i made it thru the whole thing and didnt throw up... but you know my eyes were rolling and i was hollering at the tv... well gotta run... love ya... constance