Ruff week but made it thru thanks to friends

so ok... it has been one hell of a week to say the least... and none of it has been overly good... when it rains it pours... ok... so you know i passed the test at work so i was on a very high high... and then i got home and recieved the news that my friend had passed away and i went on a really low... that was taken a bit further on tuesday morning when i went to start my car and it wouldnt start... and the training continued all week long... it was hard but i just kinda faked it and made it thru... i did get an accommodation at work for being very courteous...

but what really got me thru this week were my calls out of the blue from friends... Kerry called me the day i found out... the sadness was looming but had yet begin to roll in... i think i was still in shock... my friend Cesslie had called so I told her the news of Seth, they had been very close too and we reminiced about what a wonderful person Seth was... and then later that nite another call out of the blue all the way from Conneticut... April had called to say hello and tell how the family was doing and then put her husband, Mr. Darling on the phone... and we talked forever, about our lives, jobs, and then I told him, he was pretty shook up hearing about Seth... Seth had made made a good impression on everyone he met... and then on Saturday i got a call phone call from my dear friend Anitra... it was good to hear from you to darling... and its sweet of everyone of you for offering your condolences... thank you all for being my friend... i treasure you all... and to Allen for being here for me too... he had never met Seth but had been told stories of him... It makes me want to get that crown back even more now that he is gone!!! Damn them bitches!!!  LOL i cant let the scandal of the Styx crown go... LOL  guess im just a petty ol' bitch... well gotta run to the kitchen for some chocolate covered oreos...

love ya

C

Goodbye my dear sweet sister

Goodbye my dear sweet Sister

Goodbye my dear sweet sister,

you know i loved you so...

im sorry i could not be there,

and then you had to go...

I cherished all the years of fun we shared,

and laugh at all the times we'd be crazy and stupid...

just for some guy...

I wish i had been there to see you,

It breaks my heart to pieces...

to hear that you had passed,

I loved you so much, and wanted the world for you...

if we could only have had just a chance

for another time together...

it would have been another memory that would have stayed with me forever...

but you definately made an impression, on this missouri gurl its true...

i knew i had a friend that i could confide in whenever...

i know we've been apart for 4 long years,

and the memory of you and your sweet smile remain in my mind

as im fighting back the tears,

it hurts knowing i couldnt afford the trip,

and i never had a chance to say goodbye...

but know in my heart how very much you meant...

i love you so much my dear sweet sister...

your memories will live in me forever... and i will share stories of you

and let your memory live on... everytime i speak your name...

know that my heart is breaking as i write this song...

my dream would be for Dolly to sing along...

I love you my Dear Sweet Sister...

Farewell Mascara... Farewell Sasha... and my darling Seth...

you know you'll always hold a special place in my heart...

I LOVE YOU... and will forever miss you....

you have truly been a very dear friend...

 

this poem is for Seth who passed away this morning... im so sorry i wasnt able to get out there to see you Sweetie... ive been so broke... and stuck in a training that i didnt want to be in... i did pass the test today... but after this news... it doesnt really matter does it? i really gotta go right now... im not doing very well

c

just enjoying my friday...

LOOK b4 u CLICK!!!

Well today... i did actually take the time to update my favourites list today on my Journal...  and it was a bit problematic...LOL but i did get it done... i thought... you know if this is my favourite list... shouldnt I be first? so i put my aol hometown pages first, followed by me on MY SPACE (have a myspace account? add me to your friends... love to hear from ya... Check out the song... its Sordid Lives by Olivia Newton-John... they are actually making a series on Logo of this hilarious movie!!!  Then I believe there is a link to lead you to DC comics where you can look for any hero you want in the DC universe.. but... you know my favourite...WONDER WOMAN!!! my LOVE... i actually read the comic before i had ever seen Lynda Carter... the first issue i bought was in 1976 and i was five years old...  followed closely by my other loves... Olivia Newton-John, Madonna, and Days of Our Lives...

finished this week of training... two more weeks to go... and just got off the phone with my mother... that kind of put a damper on my bright and cheery mood... with her preachings of turning my life over to GOD... i believe in GOD and i believe that GOD loves me for who I am... and all that I am...

Love&Light

Constance

a tribute to Waldozer

well... borrowed my roommates cellphone and tried to call my friend Susan but i guess she had the day off and wasnt there to be found... so then i called my Grandpa to wish him a late Happy 4th of July... we had a pretty good talk... told him about my training class that i started to day... and he said well you cant be CEO all in one day... LOL we talked about him winning the lottery and he would come out to Tucson for a visit... Grandpa going anywhere out of New Franklin Mo. would be a feat... LOL but Tucson... we discussed if he won the lottery i asked him if he could get us a new president, and he laughed and said something to the fact that all politicians are shady... and i told him about a promise i made to Grandma... she told me... now honey... if you dont do anything else that i say in your life... Always vote DEMOCRAT!!! so i have upheld that... then the conversation turned and Grandpa told me that Waldo Hundley had passed away... my heart just broke... i remember him from when i was just a wee child... his name was Waldo... and my Grandpa drove a bulldozer... so i called Waldo--Waldozer!!!  being so young and being brought up around my Grandparents alot when i was very young... I always remember ol' Waldozer bein there and he was my friend... i always enjoyed when he came around to visit my Pawpaw...  i found that he had passed away last week... he had been suffering before... and at least his suffering was finally over... He was a wonderful man... may you be in a better place and with all those that love you that will once again be with you...  you will always hold a special place in my life... Franklin won't be the same without you...

in the darkness, let there be Love&Light

C

Happy Firecracker Day!!!

just wanted to take the time and wish everyone a HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY!!!  hope this holiday finds everyone well...  well ive already had a bang this morning... it was hot and a repeat performer... LOL  may the day be explosive for everyone in GOOD way!!! need a treat and then ill proceed to the next paragraph...

have today off work but have to start training for a new project tomorrow... im kinda dreading it... but not quite as much cuz i was worried if you fail the test that you will loose your job... but thats not the case, they will take a coach and walk thru the test with you to make sure that you know everything... and then you will go on out to the floor...   

the summer season always comes with a string of excellent movies... ive seen two in a matter of days... the first was SUPERMAN RETURNS!!!  if you like superman you will really like this movie... Brandon Routh, although i had reservations at first, was a perfect SUPERMAN, he was a good followup after Christopher Reeve...  Has anyone heard about them making his package smaller from the movie cuz i hear the man is blessed... wish i could tell you that from first hand experience, but alas... no such luck... oh well...  and then the second feature that i took in was the inside look at the fashion world thru a fashion magazine movie... THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA!!!  Meryl Streep was fabulous...  she was such a bitch... but i guess she had a good heart underneath it all... but dont let anyone be aware of that...  both movies are a must see on my list... and BRANDON ROUTH IS A MUST DO!!! the man is HOT!!!

might report back later today but dont hold your breath... LOL

Love&Light

Constance

 

Passionate Encounters of the HOT kind

      Passionate encounters of the HOT kind are the most erotic spontaneous moments any person can experience...

WARNING!!! EXPLICIT THOUGHTS AHEAD!!! PROCEED AT YOUR OWN RISK!!!

        take for example, last nite at one fifteen am i recieve a phone call... and i must admit that it is someone that i find myself very attracted to... but as in the last poem, society and whats deemed right and wrong will keep me from having a true lasting relationship with this person because for the most part... he is straight and wants to have a family and get married i guess so he can make the ol parents happy...  Im sorry, but you know me... im to bullheaded and stubborn to be bullied into what others want me to believe, (to bad your not reading this Mommy) if i don't believe it as well...  Wow... i went off the EROTIC topic pretty quickly that faces topical issues in society... i didnt know i had it all in me... really (batting my false eyelashes quickly and smiling innocently)

Anyways.. back to HOT enounters... My friend needed me to help him get beer back to his house cuz he was on his motorcycle and its kinda hard to put a 12 pack on your motorcycle... so i met him at the convenience store... and took the beer back to his apartment... he had went out to the bar, had a good time and i guess he wanted some company...  normally i just do the normal thing for a straight guy and help them release in just an oral fashion... that being me the only one performing orally and i dont mind when its a HOTTY!!! And he definately is!!!  anyho... he goes to the bathroom, comes back minus his pants wearing only a white wife beater (those shirts always make me moist) and his boxers!!!  I teased him and told him that he lost some stuff in the bathroom... he puts on a cd... comes over to the couch and begins kissing me...and pulling me down on top of him in a steamy embrace... mmmmmmmmm just the thought of it is makin me moist...  Needless to say the rest of the evening or early morning depending on which view you might be seeing...( i did get home about 420 am!!!) He has such a sex drive...release and then a few minutes later doing it again with another yummy delivery... the first time he released it was unexpected, he still had the profalactic still on because we hadn't got the issue of getting him inside of me... so i was orally performing to get him up... well he climaxxxed a bit early... so i had to turn the sheepskin up and drink it!!! Im sorry to admit that... but I worked really hard for that load...

just a HOT ENCOUNTER OF THE PASSIONATE kind i wanted to share... see im more than just a pretty blonde... im a giving person...

Love&Light

Constance